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The worst mental health killer you probably know nothing about (part 1)

This four-part series looks at a serious mental illness that is seriously neglected and heavily stigmatized.

On the evening of Sunday 30 April 2017, I enjoyed dinner in a party of five with a friend. Everyone came back to my home afterwards for a chat, and for a while everything was all very normal and uneventful. However, shortly after midnight my friend suddenly threw his mobile phone on the floor several times, destroying it. A short time later he started to stumble around groggily, and told me that about an hour earlier he had taken an overdose of 200 tablets—an entire bottle—of lithium carbonate, a medication commonly used to treat bipolar disorder.

I sprang into action, telling the others we needed to immediately get him to hospital. We got him downstairs and into a taxi, and then quickly to a nearby hospital. On the way there, my heart sank as I read on my mobile phone’s internet about the potential effects of a lithium carbonate overdose. As well as the dose he had taken being potentially fatal, renal failure is common.

Fortunately the hospital is close by, and it was excellent. The doctor and nurses in the emergency department immediately got to work on pumping out his stomach, and on administering sodium, fluids, and other medication. Just as they were about to begin, he also vomited, which was a great help in ridding his system of the toxic levels of lithium carbonate. The stomach pumping was maintained for around two hours, and then we stayed awake with him for the next 12 hours until early afternoon on Monday, first in the emergency ward and then in the adjacent observation ward, while the doctor and nurses monitored his condition. They had at first planned to monitor him in hospital for several days, in ICU if necessary, as there can be a delay in when maximum toxicity occurs. However, blood tests showed a rapid decline in his lithium carbonate concentrations, and as he was showing no ill effects at all he was free to go home.

The next day, he said he wouldn’t want to overdose again, after seeing the extreme distress it had caused to his friends and family. We hoped this would be true, but we knew all too well how volatile his situation was. Just three weeks earlier, close to midnight on Monday 10 April, he told me he had taken an overdose of Xanax, a medication used to treat anxiety disorders. Just like the most recent incident, I immediately contacted his sister and her boyfriend, and we rushed him to hospital where his stomach was pumped and fluids were administered. We took him home at around seven the next morning, and he then slept for most of the next 36 hours, which was very worrying. When he finally awoke he had no memory of the nearly two full days since he took the overdose. That is still the case.

The two overdoses follow an earlier incident where his behaviour didn’t seem quite right, and I found him ready to plunge a knife into his stomach. There have also been a number of incidents of self-harm. These were in the form of arm cuts, most of which required stitches, and arm scratching. Two of the cutting incidents occurred before I met him two-and-a-half years ago, and the third shortly after. He made the third cut while on a phone call to me, in response to an unstable relationship he was having at the time, and proceeded despite my desperate pleas for him to stop.

After this incident, I began to suspect he had some form of serious mental illness, perhaps bipolar disorder. My concerns in this regard were worsened by further incidents of volatile mood swings. However, he fiercely rejected my subtle suggestions in this regard. Here in China, mental illness is still very much a taboo, as is the case generally in developing countries1. Western television dramas and movies have compounded the problem by displaying mentally ill people as murderers and criminals. So nobody even wants to consider that they might suffer from a mental illness.

However, with his volatile mood swings causing great frustration to him, he started to open up to the possibility that he might have a mental illness, and one evening around a year ago we read through internet information about a range of mental illnesses. His symptoms appeared to match the description of the symptoms of bipolar disorder, so we set about locating a mental health hospital and went there the next day. They diagnosed extreme depression, and gave him a range of medication for a number of mental health problems including bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, and anxiety. These medications included the lithium carbonate and Xanax that he would later use to overdose.

The medications had significant side effects, including nausea and vomiting, and were of little benefit except for dulling the volatility of his mood swings a little. So, after around three months of taking the medications, he refused to continue with them. With his situation not improving and his frustration growing, he sought treatment at the mental health section of another hospital, again without a successful outcome.

It was then that he started to do a lot more reading about mental illnesses, and discussing his findings at length with me. From this extensive exploration, we believe that it’s likely he has one of the world’s least known mental illnesses—the misleadingly labelled borderline personality disorder (BPD). The lack of awareness of BPD isn’t confined to the general public. Many mental health practitioners worldwide have only a limited knowledge of this serious disorder, even though it has the greatest proportion of suicides of any mental illness. Around one in ten sufferers will have a successful suicide attempt.

In the coming articles (parts 2, 3, and 4), I aim to improve your awareness and knowledge of borderline personality disorder. This is vital. Whatever can be done to prevent the devastation of suicide must be done.

The next article (part 2) discusses the diagnosis, causes, and treatment of BPD. The following article (part 3) looks at how BPD is being seriously neglected and stigmatized in the community, including by mental health practitioners, and what can be done to address this, including by knowledge managers. The final article (part 4) provides information on how to effectively support a partner, family member, or friend with BPD. Supporting someone with BPD is an incredibly difficult and emotionally fatiguing task, but without the committed and effective support of family and friends, suicide is a frighteningly real possibility.

Next article: The worst mental health killer you probably know nothing about (part 2). Borderline personality disorder (BPD) diagnosis, causes and treatment.

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  1. Ganasen, K. A., Parker, S., Hugo, C. J., Stein, D. J., Emsley, R. A., & Seedat, S. (2008). Mental health literacy: focus on developing countries. African Journal of Psychiatry, 11(1), 23-28.
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Bruce Boyes

Bruce Boyes ( is a knowledge management (KM), environmental management, and education professional with over 30 years of experience in Australia and China. His work has received high-level acclaim and been recognised through a number of significant awards. He is currently a PhD candidate in the Knowledge, Technology and Innovation Group at Wageningen University and Research, and holds a Master of Environmental Management with Distinction. He is also the editor, lead writer, and a director of the award-winning RealKM Magazine (, and teaches in the Beijing Foreign Studies University (BFSU) Certified High-school Program (CHP).

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  1. I am from a third world country in South America, where public health in general is very bad, mental health much worse, but if you have money to pay private health and get second, third and fourth opinions, patience and most important, a support system of family or friends, you can find some help. It amazes me that you mention BPD as an “unknown” illness, when it’s one of the most common diagnosis, at least for women. I was misdiagnosed as BPD by several psychiatrists, some of them quite expensive, just because I engaged on self injury as a consequence of PTSD. They immediately thought Self injury equals BPD because I’m a woman and never thought about the other factors. DBT therapy helped me but the medications ruined my health, causing me insulin resistance, worsening my anxiety and my major depression. I lost my job and had to quit Uni. All because the misdiagnosis of BPD and the terrible side effects of the wrong meds and being out of the proper medication. I suffered an allergic reaction too. This happened 7 years ago and I still can’t recover, despite being in the proper meds now.

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